Torn

Here I am waking up in my feather bed the sun is so bright it's a new dawn
I am a princess , miss sunshine of a kingdom a lovely heir of a throne
And every body wishes to have my autograph in the street they're pointing at me and saying oh god the lovely princess has finally grown
I wake up the next morning every thing is so reversed and every one just hates me
And my life is all wrong , I am not that fairy tale princess?!! oh my god i wanna drown!
Was that a dream ? but I swear to god it felt so real ,
Am I insane ? I don't know how to deal ,
Let me live a normal life , I wanna trust myself the way I am
I wanna take charge of my own life's wheel
Just when I started to live again , these killing thoughts just rose again
I can feel these wounds that don't exist , that I shouldn't really feel
They sum so profound , so deep inside , I tell my self they're yours to heal
Though I know deep inside they're all illusions
But In my mind I don't know what's a dream and what's real